Reflections

It’s time for another reflection on the past year and time for a new theme for the coming one. 

Last year the theme was: meditation. Interestingly enough i forgot about the theme till i was so busy in the first weeks of October and i started to pick up my meditation practise again. I suddenly realised that that was my theme! So i’ve finally managed to meditate for 10 mins or longer at one go. It still takes some effort when i’m at home, but when i’m in the sauna it just comes (lesson: have to go to the sauna more often *grin*). Starting this practise i also realised that i really would like to start thinking about where i want to go and what i want to do in life with regards to a job. I did enjoy my final internship at the GP’s but i didn’t feel ‘at home’. Then i was offered a job in child- and youth psychiatry and i must admit that for the first time i do feel that this is the right thing for me at this moment in time. We will see if this feeling will stay after a while and otherwise i might see if i could make a career out of this. However, i still want to make my career in Herbal Medicine as well. So busy on that too. 

So endings were a big theme this year: finishing up Uni, but also moving all my stuff from my mum’s place to ‘our’ place. Our housemate moved out in August so this means that we are now really living together. Well... sort of... cos my other half has also been out of the country since the end of August. So we’ll soon be living together and trying that out *smile*. But endings are often accompanied by new beginnings: the beginning of a job, the insecurities that follow, meeting new people, starting to live together (in a month or so).

In the year to come the theme will be: Balance. I’ve noticed that of late it’s very hard for me to keep everything balanced. Work and play, me-time and us-time, but also the balance in my physical body. So from the start of next year i’ll be working on my core-stability and in Feb we’ll start dance-classes to see if we can find our balance together in that respect. 

Wishing you all the best for the year to come, may the year be filled with love, joy, learning, laughter, and happiness. 

My life as a movie

Okay, so here i am sitting at the airport trying to figure out what came over me. Well actually i know what has happened. Lets start at the (sort of) beginning. So my other half was supposed to get home (finally) on the 23rd of Dec. However, on midwinterday he phoned me and told me that they were not going to be back on the 23rd, nor before X-mas or the new year. They’ll probably be back somewhere at the end of January but i won’t believe it till i see it. So still in my rational mindset i mentioned something about visiting him since they would be at a port waiting for supplies. I sort of dismissed this possibility immediately but apparently he didn’t and mentioned it later that evening (when i had broken down). So after some more phonecalls we decided to book a flight. So managed to get everything done at work and rushed off to the airport. And here i am. Still wondering what happened and like my friend said: ‘it’s only something that happens in movies’... 

Unfortunately other passengers are never late in movies. And we’re still stuck in the plain at the airport and already an hour has passed...

Updates

Well, it has been ages since i’ve posted something on this website. A lot has changed since then. First and foremost i’ve managed to finish my degree so i’m now also working as a junior doctor in youth psychiatry. I’m really loving it! So that’s a plus cos this job found me since i already had a job at the Erica. So i’ve been juggling with time and travels. At the same time i’m still running our household on my own since my other half is in a warmer area of the world. Running it on my own is going ok but occasionally proves to be a challenge, especially when the car, the heating, and the phone decide to quit at the same time. 

Due to a change in plans the BF didn't arrive last weekend, but in slightly under 3wks. I decided to keep some of the (already planned) days off and travel to England. So at the present i’m sitting in front of the fireplace in my friend's new house. It’s really beautiful and i’m already starting to relax.

Costa Rica

Isn't it interesting that the only country in the world without an army is also the happiest?

The Footy

Outside the weather is beautiful, quiet on the streets except for the shouting of people, and occasionally you hear some annoying music from the neighbours. From inside i can hear his comments on the footbal. And all i want to do is peacefully read my book...

Another post about this item. It's just that i really don't understand it.

Calling (2)

Remember this post? Guess not.

It has been such a long time since i've had a problem with a bike. However, today it started. Suddenly my bike started to make a hell of a noice and now i can't use gear no 1 anymore. I've already asked the BF to give me a hand cos DIY is more interesting. Hopefully i'll still be able to use my bike after the weekend. The update will follow soon!

Revelations

So the footy is on. And lots of people are crazy about it. Not me. Or at least: not till yesterday. I now must admit that i really do like the football. Especially during the rush hour. Cos it means a very relaxing trip home...

Excitement

Remember those days when St Nicolas would come around or your birthday or a trip with school, final exams? The excitement and anticipation would just be too much?

That's how i feel at the moment and i can't sleep. Being a semi-insomniac anyhow, the anticipation of seeing him at the airport (where he'll be arriving around 7.30am) is just enough to keep me awake. And since i can't fall asleep now i'm slightly afraid that i won't be worth a penny tomorrow am, which -of course- adds to the stress. Tried lots of things already but nothing seems to work. Guess it's a good chance to finally read all my new books...

The ship's photographer

Apparently he got promoted. He's now the ship's photographer. Looking at the pic i can see why...

Opmerking van de dag

"Mevrouw, kunt u mij misschien helpen? Ik ben mijn geheugen geloof ik een beetje kwijt"